Aarrrgggghhhhh-The things that suck
The sun is shining-why does the world hurt so? It's been hard today. I took the kids to visit their grandparents and dad-this time we met them a little over halfway in a small town. We had lunch at a Mexican restaurant to celebrate Karl's birthday and then went to a small arcade for them to play games. Their grandpa appears on his last legs-he stayed outside because the air conditioning was too cold for him. Their dad is rapidly failing as well. His teeth are so bad I can barely look at him (focusing hard on the eyes helps), his walk is slow and lumbering and he has strong tremors from his meds. I have known these people nearly two decades now-over a third of my life- and it hard to see them like this. And always during the drive home I am hit with the memory of all the drives home when I wasn't driving-when their dad was with us. I don't think it is sadness-just nostalgia. Just what ifs and why nots clogging at my brain. I miss the good times, but the bad times were t...
